Wedded bliss...

I hope. This past Saturday evening (oh yeah, the HOTTEST day of the summer thus far in MA) was yet another wedding for me to attend. Me and 1Guy went together as it was the daughter of a family that we're still connected to even after some moves and church changes...it was this family's eldest daughter. The bride is turning 19 next month.

Yes, you read that correctly - she's not even 19 yet. Amazing. I am not going to judge this couple's relationship or question whether or not these two youngins should have gotten hitched - I'm not mom or dad and I know they've walked them through this decision. I don't think college was in the plans for either one of them so this must have seemed like the next logical step.

It was just SO interesting to experience this wedding as compared to my former roomies almost two months ago (!!) and then as I help prepare for my sister's 2nd marriage next month. It's like there's this tangible 'maturity' to each relationship. Saturday night there were these two youngins marrying and it all seemed so innocent and pure. Fresh out with no regrets, no relational baggage they're carrying (at least no heavy suitcases, maybe just some small overnight bags), I'm pretty sure the bride was wearing white because she traditionally could...and so on.

For my best friend and her now-hubby there was still some innocence there but hey, being in your mid-30's, the baggage weight definitely goes up. Life experience in general has molded your world perspective quite a bit and your thoughts, hopes, dreams about what your marriage will look like is OBVIOUSLY different than a 18 year-old's. Then jump ahead another 20 years, have grown children, survive the death of a spouse, and there's my sister and her husband-to-be.

I just had this all running through my mind this weekend and it's actually helped me process why I'm still in this 'season of singleness' (why do I not like that phrase?) yet again. He knows the whens, the ifs, the whos so much better than I do...I don't know about you but I can almost sense when I'm about to literally pick up the reigns in my life again and try and 'take over'. Because there are still those areas that I need to re-release to the Lord I've had to be reminded again of just how amazingly in control God is over my life and to LET HIM have that control...to trust Him with it.

Why can't I just do it once and be done with it? Life would be SO much easier. My ex emailed me yesterday (we have some mutual friends going through a rough time and he was asking about them) and he said how he was praying 'that all goes well as they negotiate this earthly pilgrimage we're called to'. This earthly pilgrimage...reminds me of one of my favorite Steven Curtis Chapman songs, "Not Home Yet". I'm not 'home' yet and so look forward to that day when I will be looking my Lord & Savior in the face, realizing truly & completely what His love for me is all about...until then, I will strive to live my life seeking after that truth daily. I hope as I 'negotiate my earthly pilgrimage' that His love will spill over onto those I meet and am traveling with...

Thanks for reading my ramblings...I've just had a lot going on up in this head o'mine and needed to get some of it out. :) Take care!