Thursday, March 31, 2005

Speaking of heels...

From one of the MANY posts from yesterday I mentioned my LOVE of heels. Well, I went out shopping for some summery shoes Tuesday night and found this FUN pair of black heely sandals that cross over the casual/slightly dressy line. LOVED THEM - bought them. The weather is again GORGEOUS out here in MA so I put them on this AM thinking how fun to wear these on March 31!! (btw - shoutout time to my buddy:Happy Birthday, Dave!!)
I put on this GREAT pair of sandals and found that one side of one of the sandals (for lack of a better phrase) TOTALLY RUBS ME THE WRONG WAY! It sticks out funny and I know would reallllly hurt after standing for tonight's concert (not to rub anything in - less than six hours from now!!)
So I must return them...I very anal about shoes fitting 'somewhat' decently. Cliff believed the secret to life was comfy shoes - I think there's an ounce of truth to that. Just an ounce. This just means I get to look for MORE shoes...fun!
PSD - It was Samira's post about the bridal show she went to that motivated me to start this badboy. Funny, huh? I'll SOOOO post about it ~ if my roomie and I are still speaking by then. Wow - wedding stress rots. Completely. Good thing I love her. ;)
I'm outtie - till tomorrow!
ps - I honesty did try those sandals on in the store - I think I was so anamored with how much I liked them, I didn't realize they fit funny. Scary, huh? Nothing like realizing the truth by the light of day!

Wednesday, March 30, 2005

I've never blogged so much at once in my life.

Last blog for today - I promise.
I just had to let you know... I won more tickets to another FABU bridal show for me and my BF!!! It's a diamond place and among the fashion show, incredible door prizes, chowder & cake tasting - THERE'S EVEN A WINE TASTING. How can you even stand it! If I believed in the whole 'luck' thing - I'd tell you you could touch me and see if my luck would rub off! It's this Sunday so I'll tell you about it Monday - unless I'm still tasting the wine then!
ps - that wasn't a typo. Welcome to New England where having a 'chowder tasting' is acceptable. Hilarious. (Beth, I wanna know what bridesmaid dresses you liked from last Saturday???)

answers for OD :)

How do I LOVE it when peeps leave me questions in the comment realm? Seriously, I appreciate knowing that when I'm answering someone's questions, at least someone is somehow appreciating my blog :)even if it's just to satisfy a curiosity. My responses will be in the parenthesis...
Here we go:
Yes, I am 5'11". So OD asks, What's your preference on heels? (I honestly love them.) Has the height ever been a problem with slightly shorter or more insecure guys? (yes and no - for most of the relationships, I've probably been the insecure one. In one relationship where we were 'both so sure' we were marriage bound, I realized after we had broken up that I had spent over a year and half standing in a literal kind of slouch as to make it look like P was taller than me. HOW LAME was that? It was after that breakup that I FULLY embraced the beauty of heels. Even if they do mess up our hip alignment and put too much pressure on our toesies...) Or do you only date taller men? (Actually most of my boyfriends have been shorter for the mere reason that my mother only wanted me to date, and eventually marry, and man that's like 6'8"! Not that she 'cursed me' with that desire of hers cuz I don't believe in that but whenever I bring home a shorterthanme guy, I look at my mom and say, 'See what you've done?')

BIL. What happened? Have you written about this before? (Seeing as I don't remember time before having my brother-in-law D in my life, I tend to drop the 'in-law' part when I talk about him. I don't think I've blogged here about him - I've commented about D on Samira's site - which is how PSD & I met btw - gosh, I could gush on this for awhile so I'll nutshell it here:

D was diagnosed with an inoperable brain tumor in Feb. '95. On March 25, 2004, D went to be with Jesus, finally cancerfree. Those nine + years were an intense ride. God taught all of us quite a bit about Who He is and what exactly we're supposed to be doing down here...again, blogmaterial for another time. My sister and nephew are doing as well as can be expected. C -my sis - is an amazing woman. I truly admire her in so many ways and am so thankful that I've had her in my life to be such a godly example. My nephew, N, is the one I referred to as the next Bill Gates. He's 23 and is wonderful...simply wonderful.)


Parents in their late 70s and you are the youngest. How many sibs do you have and what's the age range (feel free not to answer that if I'm gettin too personal)? Are you all east coasters? (Let's see - There are seven girls and one boy. My brother is fifth in line so he was 'surrounded' growing up. Don't feel bad for him. He got the room by himself & all kinds of other stuff. ;) The eldest will be 56 in September and I'll be the ripe old age of 35 in July. #7 was seven when I came along so I was quite literally 'the surprise baby.' Yeah, such the surprise that when my mom was told by a cruise ship doctor that the 'rabbit died', she cried. I don't blame her - she was 40 at the time she found out. Back in 1970 and after having had SEVEN kiddos, I would have cried too. Funny how things work out - if I'm pregnant at 40 I'll be crying tears of thankfulness. Lastly, the location stats are like this: five sibs in Maine, I'm in MA, my bro's in CT, and one sister snuck out and is in FL. So, yes, we are all eastcoasters just ALL THE WAY DOWN THE COAST.:) )

Also curious how you know psd. (Did you catch that answer above?)

And about boring us...try. :) (HEY - WAKE UP! YOU'RE SNORING & THE BLOG IS OVER!)
Leave me a question - I dare you!

Talking through windows...

It finally happened. You know all those times you're driving along in your car (this wouldn't apply to motorcycles, OD - at least I don't think so) and something happens that causes you to say something outloud about it. I try to avoid the expletives (with everything within me I try!) but I'll be known to say, "OK LADY WITH THE DEATH WISH!" or something like "BOOB WITH THE CELL PHONE!"

Anywho - today I'm leaving the parking lot of the plaza that has the closest post office near my office. I'm waiting third in line at the red light to exit. Now a little background - this is the WEIRDEST parking lot - it's a 'one way' lot. You enter, turn right and go around in a circle until you hit the exit (where you came in). Leave it to some New Englander that thought that genius traffic pattern up.

ANYWAY - remember, I'm waiting at the red light behind two other cars when a car enters AND TURNS LEFT! As she (sadly my female blog friends, it was she - giving women like us a bad name.) was approaching my vehicle (and by approaching I mean 2.5 centimeters away from me!) I flat out say, "You're going the wrong way. You're supposed to turn right." Now, if anyone read my comment on OD's site, today is ABSOLUTELY gorgeous in Boston so OF COURSE ALL OUR CAR WINDOWS ARE DOWN, seeing as it feels like the longest winter since 19whatever. Even though my music was ablarin' (so groovin' to the song 'Collide' by a guy from MAINE - woohoo!) the female driving freak HEARD ME!

I was mortified but not as mortified as she was. She looked at me so apologetically and so I, now aware that my words met her ears, say, "Yeah, you're supposed to go the other way or it's going to be a little tight." (said as nicely as possible.) Well the light goes green (thank God for little miracles) and I bolted. I checked in the rearview and she just stayed put until we all cleared out of her way - poor thing.

So there. It finally happened to me. I said something THINKING I was in my protective bubble when alas, my bubble was burst. Thank goodness there wasn't a road rage episode! :)

Pleasant Wednesday wishes....one more wakeup before SCC bliss. And btw - I won a concert prize pack from the radio station sponsoring the tour up in Portland - SWEET!
Anyone need a SCC CD? I'm thinking I'll have extras! Let me know!

Tuesday, March 29, 2005

Short & sweet...

My Easter weekend was short & sweet (and not JUST because of the Easter candy!)...I haven't had that nice a weekend at home in quite awhile. Either I was struggling with my own personal crap or still wrestling with sadness over my brother-in-law's passing - it's just been strange.
But not this past weekend - it was the old comfortable, oh I'm at home and so happy visit...even though Friday was my ex's birthday as well as the one year anniversary of my BIL's death - the whole weekend was marked with very fun and memorable moments.
I'm sure at some point I'll bore you with the details but one specific highlight for me was Saturday morning. My folks take care of setting up the flowers at our church so they were off pretty early doing that....meanwhile I'm waking up with my cup o'joe and my aunt calls. This is the aunt I'm named for - my middle name. I'm my parent's youngest and this aunt is my mom's youngest sister - cute, huh? Actually, I think we're a lot alike. Yikes.
Auntie calls and we're on the phone forever...good thing is, I really enjoy her storytelling and her sense of humor...once we're done chatting, mom & dad get home and I go the beach for my first outdoor run. I've been running on a treadmill for the last couple months at the gym and found that I really love it! Due to a couple injuries while I was growing up, I wasn't the athletic type in hs although I wanted to be - at 5'11", I LOVED playing basketball. Anywho - I've now got this running bug and on the beach Saturday - I was jonesing.
I ran barefoot (stupid possibly but I can't do beaches with any kind of shoe apparel on)and although the ocean was EXTREMELY cold (yes, numbness set in for a bit) and my bra wasn't quite doing it's job as well as I'd hoped...I ran across the beach twice. (May sound impressive but you don't know the length of the beach! I'll keep actual distance to myself ;) ) It was great...I was really able to clear my head and let some things that had been bogging me down lately go. What a great way for me to 'kick off' springtime.
After a rousing Longaberger party with my mom and sisters (oh so another blog topic) that night my nephew came home to hang out with his WAY COOL aunt :) and we went 'up town' (yes, where my folks are in Maine now - it's a 20 minute drive to the nearest 'city') to get something to eat and find a flick to watch. (FYI - my nephew may very well be the next Bill Gates - he finishes school this summer - watch out BG!) We brought home 'Cellular' - not too bad a flick, so glad we rented it and didn't fork out major $ to see it ;) Overall, a great day.
Easter Sunday was memorable too...my sister and I cried some during the sermon - sometimes you just miss the person so much, even after a year it feels like yesterday and I know I can't begin to imagine what she's going through - we had a big ol' Sunday lunch together (only about 1/3 of the fam got together - about 15 of us-it was still fab) and just enjoyed each other's company.
I headed home Sunday evening and had to stop by a friend's house to drop off a recommendation letter for her daughter (love writing those, to 'brag on' a young person who deserves whatever it is I'm recommending them for) and my friend and I ended up talking for over three hours...it was just wonderful. I was tres tired yesterday (hence no blogging) but it was all worth it.
I've still got some doodoo to figure out but after this past weekend, I've been reminded yet again of Who is ultimately in control and in Whom my trust lies. I have so much to be grateful for...ok, anyone got any crackers for my cheese?
Have a super week...
ps - only two more wake-ups till SCC!!! :)

Friday, March 25, 2005

Wow - it's Friday already?

Where did this week go? Gotta keep this short - heading to ME in an hour for my Easter weekend at home with the fam. Really looking forward to it - haven't been home since my breakup and my folks always say they need their 'baby fix'. God bless 'em - into their late 70's and still needing their baby!

Got back from Texas *safely* and boy, what a weekend - that deserves about ten blogs. PSD - the trip was a kind of 'last blast' for myself, my roomie, and our two best buds from college before my roomie gets hitched in June. It was fun, hard, uplifting, depressing, riproaring time - all at once! Again, it's blog worthy when I have more time!

OK - sorry about being the tangent queen that I am - all you who are changing blog sites - you know who you are....OD - love yours! The themes are a scream! And IslandGirl - how fun is your xanga site! I'm slightly envious....I think I need some SERIOUS help with mine...PSD got me started but boy, I've got a long way to go!
OK - I've got to scoot....maybe I'll even try to blog from Maine this weekend! Who knows? Have a blessed Easter, everyone! Take care...

ps - I'll respond about my 'blog personality' later - I was thinking the SAME thing the other day PSD!

Wednesday, March 16, 2005

What are blogger friends for?

Thanks pinksundrops!! Here's my first attempt at posting a link!
I think this musician is the most amazingly gifted artist in the music realm. I love him as much as a single woman can ethically love a married man.

SCC
Love him, just love him! A bunch of us are going to his latest concert on the 31st - CAN'T WAIT.
OK - there, try that!
Heading to Texas tomorrow...have a great weekend, folks!

Tuesday, March 15, 2005

Help...and more help.

I'm so blogworld dumb. How do you put links in your posts?
I've been checking out some peeps blogs and have been THOROUGHLY impressed... and not to mention the people out there not liking blogger right now (not surprised). People are so stinkin' creative; it's so fun to read & check up on this 'virtual family'.....
I just read a blog about the whole question about whether or not you tell your friends about your blog. Honestly, I'm the type of person who could never write something down and not be able to share with everyone - even my mom! So I guess that isn't the issue for me - 'OH, I wrote something horrid about so and so so HE CAN'T read my blog...' Nope, that's not me. (probably because my incredibly wise mother taught me to never put something in print that I wouldn't want 'getting out'!) It's more like I feel like this blog is my 'private space'...I'm a pretty open person so if I'm feeling something or going through something, I share it. I think where I'm going with this is, this virtual realm is for me to go a little deeper and not have my literal world here know about it....make sense?
Why do you blog?

Monday, March 14, 2005

Mondays....

Yes, it's Monday BUT it's Monday of the week that I'm going to Texas! Thursday my two best buds are heading south to visit my third best bud in Granbury! Yippeeeeee!
I can't wait to leave all this behind and just enjoy my time with friends...it'll be hilarious and I'm sure I'll have something to blog about when I get back.
Anyone know anything about the Yellow Rose's General Granbury? I guess Saturday is a big ol' celebration of this guy and I'd love to hear from peeps about him if you know anything about him!
Lastly - I'm so bummed about the whole comment issue with Blogger but thanks to those who emailed your comments...you guys are just all so sweet! Have a great MONDAY!

Friday, March 11, 2005

My PSD Interview!!

Yes, here they are...the answers you've all been waiting for :) Boy, PSD - these were great ??? and the best part in answering them were the many smiles that came to my face as I reflected over them...wooohooo! OK - here we go!
Questions for Adrianne:

1. What was your favorite wedding that you were in, and why?

Goodness, gracious this is tough. I honestly have loved every wedding I’ve been blessed to be a part of – all 13! My roomie’s will be 14 in June so that one could overtake the top spot but for now… It would have to be my girlfriend, Jennie’s wedding. This one was second in my literal year of ‘Four Weddings and A Funeral’ (Yes, I was in four weddings in one year and my great aunt died at 107 years of age. 1996 was a doozy of a year.) If you’ve read my blog about Ellen and Bets – Bets is Jennie’s mom and we just had such an incredible time not only kickin’ up our heels at the reception – but the whole process of preparing for the day was just fab. Jennie, her hubby, and I were all great friends in college and the entire day was a wonderful picture of those we love coming together to celebrate this terrific couple we want to support and encourage for the rest of our lives.
During the reception friends from college were meeting friends of Jennie’s childhood and the kicker was there were all these private jokes that has spread over both groups…the hilarity was when different peeps from both groups realized they were all laughing at the same thing…pantwettingly funny.
It breaks my heart when I hear of people who loose touch with those they had in their wedding parties…I’m in touch with most of those I’ve stood up with and I think that’s so important. I was there to witness something so meaningful – I want them to know I take that responsibility seriously J
(I could create a whole separate blog universe on my opinions/emotions/random thoughts on weddings – could you tell?)

2. What is your favorite memory from college?

For the love of all things good & righteous…the kicker to this question is that my memory from college (yes, still exists!) is such a combination of the time period, the people, and the places…to pick just one out wouldn’t be fair to you, the reader! I was very fortunate to have had an absolute fabulous experience in college…my friends render me speechless they are so well, GREAT!
Here’s a quickie: By junior year my friend, D and I had not only firmly established our friendship but also the fact that the back row in our education classes were ‘ours’. When our junior year began we basically sucked P into this row cuz we thought P was the bees’ knees…so one day during an especially boring lecture I kept poking Matt, the guy in front of me with my pen. He was one of the few, the proud, the brave male ed. majors in our class. He was also hysterical and P had a bit of a crush on him. I was just buggin’ him cuz I was bored…so what does he do? After the 1,000th poke from me (and he knew it was from me) he makes this grand gesture of turning around, semi-standing, and says, ‘P! WILL YOU STOP POKING ME!’ just as a total joke. I almost fall out of my seat, as does D BUT…P is MORTIFIED…we know this because the girl can not handle any kind of attention (especially THAT kind) without turning the BRIGHTEST shade of red you have ever seen…I think she stayed that red for most of the day after that. Oddly enough, the professor never said anything nor did really, any of our classmates…it was like the four of us had this burst of laughter and redness and that was it.
(After rereading this, if I were you, I’d be thinking…wow – this is ALL you can remember? I’ll just have to blog about some other wonderful memories…J )

3. What kind of things does your 'dream job' involve, and, are you doing that?

I was going to wait to purge all about this dream job I’ve been hinting at but, what the hay – might as well spill….this college that my posse and I met at and loved so much…they’re searching for a new Director of Alumni & Parent Relations. Hello me. I would love to go back and give back to this college. I had many a life-changing experience there and to know I could contribute to that environment for future grads to have a similar experience AND to help alums recognize the place that helped them ‘get their start’ – oh, I could gush for awhile on this. Instead I’ll just say it would combine event planning (LOVE THIS) with a team of people I respect and treasure. Hopefully I’ll know the outcome of this by midApril.

4. Where would your 'dream house' be and what would it look like?

Maine is my homestate so I would love to go back someday to a house on the coast…but here’s a little insight into me that honestly, I’ve only figured out in the last year or two (during my last relationship). It is hard for me to decide something like what this question is asking solely on my own. Why you ask? It’s not that I’m indecisive – actually, not at all. It’s more that I have always believed that my future dream home will be occupied by more than just me and if that’s the case, my ‘dream home’ will only be dreamy if it’s based on the collective dreams of all the peeps living there….ie – my future hubby and me. Seeing as he’s not in my ‘viewfinder’ at the present moment the one thing I KNOW I would like to have is the whole wrap around porch… a veranda is a musthave.
(please note the quick jump over psychoanalyzing my latest insight into self – I so need to wait on that one.)

5. All your blogger friends are in town, you've got bundles of money, it's a night out on the town, where do you go and what do you do?

Could this be a self-serving question, PSD? Hee hee hee…
Alright, we’d start with a yummy meal at “The Top Of The Hub” which is located on the top of the Prudential Center in Boston. FAB views of our fair city, Boston, as well as some of Cambridge…the food is delish, too. I’d love to hit a ‘Boston Broadway’ show…just saw ‘The Lion King’ last month – it was terrific! Maybe Phantom would still be here, or The Blue Man group? Then we could head over to Charlestown near where Old Ironsides is to hit ‘Olives’ – an amazing Todd English restaurant that was actually visited by the winning women’s team on ‘The Apprentice’ last season. There are some clubs to visit too but I’m pretty much out of that realm, being the oldie goldie I am now J
If peeps were still here the next day, we’d HAVE to take a Duck Tour around the city, too! The Ducks go from land travel, right into the Charles River and back out again…gotta love those amphibious vehicles!
Hope y'all enjoy the reading! Have a great day!

Wednesday, March 09, 2005

Should I?

OK...do you ever apologize for writing what you think is the longest, jumping all over the place, no one really understands blog? :)

It's not Thursday?

Woke up this morning so thinking it was tomorrow...a private little yipee to myself - tomorrow's Friday! Then I realized it was only Wednesday...and remembered my mom always saying how my grandmother would say over & over - 'Stop wishing your life away!' Sorry grandma...;)
This past weekend a close friend of my parents passed away. She had suffered from Alzheimer’s for over 10 years now and her husband (in his mid 90's God bless him...) would visit her every day to make sure she had at least one decent meal. They had such a beautiful marriage. And I think of my parents - wow. This April will be their 57th anniversary and talk about a picture of commitment, trust, and love...I well up just thinking about it. As the youngest of the eight children they raised, I have been so very blessed to watch them live out that love.
Over these last few weeks of making sure people knew about the demise of my most recent relationship, encouraging them with the heartfelt 'really, I'm ok, it's a good thing' line, helping with the impending wedding of my best friend, hearing stories of married friends and the 'fun' they have in their marriages (and really - reading some of YOUR blogs out there - I love how honest you guys are when you talk about your spouse!) I stopped to think about the work and dedication it truly takes to make a marriage work. For my parents' friends - I'm sure when Mr. T married Mrs. T over 60 years ago, he wasn't thinking about the possibility of the role he took on these last 12-14 years. For my parents, did they ever imagine their life together when they hit their mid 70's? I guess I'm floundering in the realm of what 'love' is really all about...it's about the joys and 'fun' and trials at times but for me, I'm realizing more and more - it's about the long haul...through the mediocre times, through the 'you're really pissing me off times', through the 'you have no idea who I am anymore' times....
I'm not questioning if it's worth it - from all I've observed, I know it is. I just really wonder if it's out there for me...a good friend of mine said to me the other night that she really doubts my soulmate is out there because I'm such an amazing person. (REALLY not tooting my horn here - she just sees me as this independent, 'with it', all put together and still crazily fun person - don't you wanna get to know me?? ;) ) And I thought, gee, what if he's not? I know I'm not fooling any of you, yes, I've thought that before but I guess in the context of where my brain has been these last few weeks...what if I don't find that person who will wipe drool from my mouth if I'm diagnosed with ALS? What if I forget everyone and everything from my life, will I have that spouse who still visits me every day without fail? What if I never have sex? (so another blog)
I know there are others who don't marry....it's not like it's a plague or anything. But to try and think about life without that person who will (like in "Shall We Dance?" Susan Sarandon's character says) 'witnesses my life' as we experience it together...gee...I just have never really given any deep thought to that distinct possibility.
So it's not Thursday (yet) and I haven't found my soulmate (yet). I promise not to wish my life away and I also promise I won't toss out any lifelong dreams...I've seen too much and been looking forward to 'em for too long...I just let myself think outside those dreams every once in awhile...here's to Thursday!

Sunday, March 06, 2005

Sunday nights...

Goodness, it's been awhile since I was here! Sorry for taking so long...life has been the usual crazy time it tends to be. Wedding plans for my roomie are in high gear...as with most weddings the crud that goes on could be it's OWN blog so I'll keep that part brief: I love to plan weddings. Love to with all my heart. My dilemma is if someone realllllly doesn't enjoy planning it, let someone who does work it! I don't mean make all the decisions but I could be doing a heck of a lot more than I am so that frustrates me for my roomie...I think she feels like she needs to take it all on and well, I wish she wouldn't. Don't get me wrong - I've offered and she's taken me up on some things (ie - the last two Saturdays I've been exhausted from all the running around we've been doing) but hey, June will come and her day will be fabulous so I'll just keep focusing on that:)
Plans to hit Texas again are finalized. On what would have been my 'anniversary' with my ex (oh, how CHEESEY that sounds) my two best buds & I are flying down to the ol' Yellow Rose to see my third best bud. All college roomies getting together before my roomie's wedding...two are married with kids (all absolutely adorable, almost impossible to stand!) and then there's my roomie who is headed toward matrimonial bliss in a little over three months - and then there's me. Another relationship that just 'didn't work out'....not that I secretly longed for it to...when we ended it, boy, were we ever on the same page and both in agreement. It's just that I remember back to when we were finishing college and everyone thought that I would SO be the first down that blissful aisle...HA! My life has looked more like I'm running to avoid it! (ok, no psychotherapy here, I'm not trying to avoid it, really.) We just never know what our lives are going to end up looking like....for me, where I am now, was never in the initial set of cards I thought had been handed to me. But that's ok...meaning, I'm ok.
I was having an absolutely wonderful convo with a girlfriend of mine about how thankful I am for the super husbands my married girlfriends have. Honestly, I'm thrilled for them...I think because each man is so 'perfectly' suited for the woman he is married to...my friend (let's name her Kate) said how one of her married friends sometimes says (when she's ticked at her hubby) how Kate can have him. Kate replies, ah, no...I'd kill him. And it struck such a cord for us! That's it! When it's 'the one' for us, we may want to 'give him away for awhile' but we couldn't imagine life without him...when it's not right, murderous thoughts creep in...hee hee hee.
So it's Sunday night and this is what I tend to end up doing...letting my thoughts take me places that I don't always get to Monday - Friday...hope you have a blessed week and btw, I've opened up my comments to receive non-bloggers, so please, comment away! :) Take care!